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In Italy, they publish Disney comics, and they have this series called Wizards of Mickey, which is basically the adventures of Mickey, Donald and Goofy in a mythical world of magic.

AND IT IS THE COOLEST THING EVER, GO LOOK AT THIS STUFF.

http://www.wizardsofmickey.com/extra/video/

They have 'trailers' for it, and all these profiles of the characters and with INCREDIBLE art and designs, and thank god I have googletoolbar or whatever to translate it as because THIS STUFF IS AMAZING.

Minnie is a queen, Pluto turns into a wolf-like thing, Donald declares his love to Daisy during a battle and they have the Phantom blot and dragons and witches and Magica and MICKEY HAD THE POTENTIAL TO BE EVIL, IT WAS SCARY AND SO GOD DAMN COOL. FUCK YOU ITALY HAVING THIS AMAZING STUFF! GAAAAH DO WAAAANT!
 
 
 
 
 
 
✖ Ask any of the characters I roleplay a question, and I'll reply in-character as them with an answer.
✖ Feel free to ask them ANYTHING, Regardless of whether you know their canon or not.
✖ Feel free to also ask them as your own character. They will respond accordingly.

Won't put dear_mun because LORDY that would be an even longer list. Aso, am I a bad person for wanting to also bring Retasu to Island, just so Adam Blade can pedo all over her? The answer is yes.

[Island]
Makoto Kino/sailor Moon
Amy Rose/Sonic the Hedgehog
Freya/Chobits
Mickey Mouse/Kingdom Hearts

[Mayfield]

Saki Hanajima/Fruits Basket
Takashi Morinozuka/Ouran High School Host Club
Amy Rose/Sonic the Hedgehog
Sakutaro/Umineko No Naku Koro Ni
Rue/Princess Tutu

[jigoku]
Retasu Midorikawa/Tokyo Mew Mew

[Memento Eden]
Ritsu Souma/Fruits Basket
Wizarmon/Digimon Adventure

[squarewarts]
Ritsu Kasanoda/Ouran High School Host Club

[Zenithia]
Minnie Mouse/Kingdom Hearts

[discedo]
Kagura Souma/Fruits Basket

[luceti]
Makoto Kino/Sailor Moon
Umehito Nekozawa/Ouran High School Host Club

[polychromatic]
Umehito Nekozawa/Ouran High School Host Club
 
 
 
 
 
 
For anyone reading this, this is really just letting people know what's to come. I'm also combining manga and anime canon. The updates will be slower from here on out, due to the college semester starting.

 

"All right, everyone listen up! Gather around, this is important!" )
 
 
 
 
 
 
So lately I've been a tad obsessed with the pairing KasanodaxTetsuya, so I decided to try and take a stab at writing fanfiction for them. The basic summary is thus - "The Ouran Academy is taking is students on a weekend trip to the new Ootori hot springs, and everyone is allowed to bring a guest. When Kasanoda invites Tetsuya, can the servant control his feelings in such an environment? Can Kasanoda overcome his feelings for Fujioka? Add some meddling from the Host Club, a dash of Renge's otaku thinking, and plenty of hot boys in white towels, this typical boy love fantasy could take a turn for the worst."

Enjoy the first chapter of "Master And Nothing More."

 

"Welcome home, little lord!" )
 
 
 
 
 
 
May as well give it a shot.

I even sent in three more apps today. )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Thanks to anyone who has been reading this, it'll be the final chapter. I am thinking of doing another story like this, probably shorter, with Donald and Daisy.

 

This time, Mickey was early for the steamboat. )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Wrote the begining on Friday, took a break over the weekend, resumed today. Bit nervous writing it, since it involves things that happen in the games that I haven't seen - namely, Mickey meeting and talking to Ansem and his assistant. But, I gave it my best shot. Enjoy.

 

The coronation would be in a few hours. )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Used an actual quote from Walt Disney there. Enjoy.

 

Mickey couldn't sleep. )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Second chapter of Steamboat. Trying to insert shout-outs and whatnot. Enjoy.

 

These are dark times, your highness. )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Had this idea in time for a while, originally going to be a short story, but it's going to be too long for that. It's technically Kingdom Hearts fanfiction, focused on the Disney characters... It takes place before the games, it could even take place before Birth By Sleep but I aint waiting that long to see. Essentially it's before Mickey was a king, and was just a prince, falling for Minnie. Enjoy the first chapter of "Steamboat".

The steamboat was his favorite 'ride' in the entire kingdom. )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Last month, when my fall semester ended, I found out I had screwed up in some places. The biggest issue was with my 19th Century Romantic Literature class, in which I had forgotten to submit the last essay before leaving to go home with my family for winter break. Via e-mail, the teacher said she would have to drop a letter(i had found out earlier so far I had a B in that class) for it being late, and wanted it to be handed in, well, by hand. But by the time I got this e-mail, my town had gotten plowed by a snowstorm, and trying to drive back there would have been suicide. So I sent the essay via e-mail, twice, and prayed that I wouldn't fail.

Today, the grades for all classes go up,which I was dreading to see. I delayed it, watching a L&O:SVU marathon and reading Stephen King's "Under The Dome", but after a few episodes and chapters, I finally got the courage to go on the web and look... and I found out I got a B-minus in that class. In other classes, I got an A, another B-, and three Bs.

... WHAT THE FUCK DID I REALLY GET NO Cs and Ds THIS SEMESTER?!

HALLELUIAH

EVERYBODY

EVERYBODY

EVERYBODY WANTS TO BE A CAT wait that's not the right song

OH WELL WHO CARES WHOOOOOOO I PASSED
 
 
 
 
 
 
So I got a digital camera for Christmas, and today, mom bought me two Disney watches. Conversation leading to it went something like this.

Mom knows me well. )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Over the semester, I got into the Mighty Ducks fandom. I managed to finish my contribution to it today. Number 51 of the 100 Choices challenge. Enjoy, if you're into it.

 

Meditation is... )
 
 
 
 
 
 
There will be spoilers ahead. You've been warned.

Ever since the movie was released last Friday, I have annoying the fuck out of my parents to take me. One the one day they both had off... We're having a major snowstorm.

Mom: Those roads look really dangerous.
Me: ...*wibble face*
Mom: ... Kevin[Dad], how bad would it be on route 66?
Me: PLAYING TIMES ARE 2:20 :40 7:10 AND 9:20.
Dad: *lulz* What, you wanna see Avatar?
Me: ... No.

So we braved the snow and got to the theater. At first the sound wasn't playing, but that fixed itself by the time the previews came. We got a huge tub of popcorn, which mom spilled before the movie began =P And we were the only ones in that theater. So we're laughing at the commercials that tell us to put phones on silent and to not talk. Mom: SCREW YOU! MAKE ME! *lulz* ... And that's when a dad and his kids came in, of course. But onto the movie. I was a little worried that my high expectations wouldn't be met, but once "Almost There" played, I knew I was in for a treat.

Spoilers Ahoy! ) Afterwards, I told Mom I was gunna download the music ASAP, but she told me not to, hinting that 'Santa' may have already gotten the CD ;3 Guess I just have to wait a little longer for that magical music again. If you haven't seen it, or know someone who hasn't seen it? Go. See it now. Why are you still reading this GO SEE IT NOW
 
 
 
 
 
 
The last of my finals is over, and now I'm home for Winter Break! To celebrate, I'm going to show you more Disney pics - but this time, a lot more, and with a theme! Christmas/Winter! Be prepared for lots of cute! Once again, the first will be Mice, then Birds, and then Group. Enjoy!
Let It Snow )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Here's where I type up how my Saturday with Mom watching TSO went, so feel free to ignore if you don't give a rats ass =P

Took a train there, and from there a bus, which mom was worried about the difference between a 'bus bus' and a 'shuttle bus', but we made it to the NJ IZOD center regardless. different seating than last year, though! Last year were in the middle on the ground, this year we were in the back and up high. At first I was worried, because I have a fear of heights, and I was afraid until the show started, and from then on I was too distracted to be afraid!

Initially, I was a little disappointed, because the first half was the same 'story' was last year. However, I was soon shocked... they added amazing video visuals to their backgrounds, and some dancers! So now everything had a new look to it, and I fell in love all over again. And the second half was sort of new, because apparently they released a new CD, NightCastle (thank yew sword), and played songs from it. Their guest star was Joe Walsh, from the Eagles. I had no idea who it was, and when I asked mom, she told it was 'before your time' before explaining him. I texted this to dad, and he was very jealous =P

Finished, we bought a T-shirt, and headed into the city! New York City, of course. Apparently it was 'Santacon', where people dress up as Santa and go into the city, and get hammered. They were on ever single block, and on the train on the way home! Some were sleazy, some were chicks, some were themed, some were elves... it was pretty odd. Also, we got to watch a Hanukah parade, which was basically cars and vans with giant menorahs on top (3 lights were on... I'm guessing they do this every night of the holiday!) It was fun.

We did a bit of shopping... a hat for my sensitive ears, which was too big and kept covering my eyes, and some jewelry for my sister Ally, since Friday was pretty bad to her. We walked all around the city to see the Christmas sights, like the store windows and the tree and the rinks... we ate at Sbarros, which hilariously did not have a 'small' or even a 'medium' drink, we hd to drink out of these giant plastic cups. We had ice cream as we waited for the train home,where I fell asleep, despite the yellings of two different games being let out and into the train.

Good day was good~
 
 
 
 
 
 
This coming weekend, my mother will be taking me to see The Transiberian Orchestra, once again. Also this weekend, we plan on going shopping for gifts, seeing The Princess and The Frog, and go into the city.

I am actually looking more forward to this weekend than to Christmas.

I am such a mommy's girl. She has always, always been there for me, and I don't think I have ever been disappointed in her. No matter what I've been into, even when I eventually dropped out of it, she has always supported, and tried to help. When I thought I could dance, she signed me up for dance class. When I thought I could do art, she found an art class for me, and bought me a scanner. When I thought I could act, she came to see all of the plays I was in, no matter how minor the role.

It was actually she that got me into Broadway, for those of you that know about my love of it. When I was little, she took me to see Cats, and I was hooked forever since. I just love to go out with her, because we always find things to talk about, and even when she's annoyed at me, we wind up smiling and laughing at how silly we've been. Even the one time I was furious at her (her finding some... really twisted written porn as she was looking for stuff I had written for class. In hindsight, I should have probably hidden it better... or not saved it to the family computer |D) it didn't last long, and we get over it within a day.

I've always admired her. When she hasn't been satisfied in her job, she doesn't sit down and take it. She keeps aiming higher and higher, and if there's an opportunity for her, she will grab at it. I was more excited for her getting a promotion than I was when I got my letter saying the college I chose had accepted me. She and my father love each other very much - every morning when one of them had to drive the kids to school, they always, always, gave each other a kiss before they left. I don't have a memory of them not doing it. I've never seen them fight seriously, it's always a joke with them.

I don't always give my mother reasons to be proud of me, or sometimes even to love me, but she always has. She cooks, she cleans, she takes care of the pets, she encourages me to spend money on manga, anime, books, video games, etc., she tries to take an interest in what I like, she defends me when my sisters have bullied me, she gives me an IM or a text at least once a day just to make sure I'm okay... I could make an endless list of all the amazing things she does. I don't know how I came out of such an amazing woman. (And yet, I recall, one day at my Grandmother's house, I had found a picture of myself, wearing clothes I didn't recognize. When I asked Grandma about it, it turns out the picture was actually of mom at my age - that's how much we looked alike!) She'll never read this - as far as I'm concerned! XD - but I love you, Mom.

You keep saying we might not have much this Christmas. I don't need much. I got you.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I have a Youtube account, 'MinnieSkirt', but I really only use it to fav videos. So I decided to share some of my favorite videos with my Friends List! (I've got some newer people on here, so this might give you a hint of just who you decided to watch =P)

Mice And Bunnies And Ducks, Oh My! )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Things I am doing instead of homework #37

"Give me up to three of my favorite characters/pairings and I'll pick a song for each of them.
If I'm nice, I'll add a youtube link, or something of the sort."


... yeah you're probably just going to get a youtube link no matter what.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Just another 'idea I came up with all of a sudden lemme type it out' dealio, like with the wolf story. This time the idea came up in Creative Writing class, as we talked for a bit about bullying. It's a experience I'm all too familiar with. But instead of writing a book about it, I'd actually like to make a musical about it.

So I imagined it. The stage with classrooms/rooms on top of each other, the music playing the Overture. But before it ends, there's a high pitched scream from a girl, and a gun shot. Three characters run on stage - a handsome jock, a beautiful young girl, and an old man who is a teacher. The girl sobs, having seen her friends just been shot. The teacher tells the two to follow them, he'll keep them safe in his room. He runs offstage, the girl begins to follow, but notices the jock isn't following. The jock says he thinks he can take the shooter on, it's just one guy, and it's only "Weston". The girl pleads with him, and then there's another shot, and the jock falls down, dead.

The shooter then comes on stage - a boy their age, thin, measly, weak-looking. The girl sobs over the boy's body, and then looks up at the shooter, asking "How did it come to this?" Where the shooter suddenly starts laughing, almost to insanity, as he repeats her question, over and over. There we open on the first number ("How Did It Come To This"), where the two sing about how just yesterday everything was nice and normal, and now today there's blood and carnage.

After the song ends, we travel back in time. It's the 90's, the first year of high school. The students and faculty sing about their school ("The Glory Years") and we are introduced to many aspects of this school. We meet the jocks, the smart Asians, the white guys trying to be black, the gay theater kid, the stoners, the clique girls, and so and so forth. We also meet some of the teachers - we recognize the elderly man from before as a Chemistry Teacher, but we also meet the slowly-being-let-go Music Teacher, the why-did-I-get-an-english-major English teacher, a Math teacher who has a girl that is coming to this school, and some of the others.

We are then introduced to the characters we saw in the shooting before. Weston and Jenny are best friends, have been since kindergarden. But while Weston had to go to a catholic school from K-8, Jenny left that catholic school after sixth grade and went to Junior High. They had still kept in touch, but they are still happy to be in school together. Their friend James is also with them, and he shows them 'how to get by' in the school(what teachers are laziest, where to smoke, etc). ("Making The Grade")

It becomes obvious that Weston has a crush on Jenny, but she easily falls for a football player named Ryan, and he feels the same way for her. ("Teenage Love Is Eternal Love", a parody song about how many teenagers feel their romance is for the ages) Weston has a tough time fitting in school, unused to changing rooms and lockers, but he shows to be very smart. When lunch comes, he tries to sit with Jenny and James, but finds they are already in groups of their own. He eats alone, lamenting the changes that have already occurred. ("First Day")

The kids go home, and we see their school life. Weston lives with his mother, his father has been dead for years. She's a bit of a flake, and believes that love and good intentions will always overcome, and so tries to tell her son to be more friendly in order to make friends. Jenny's parents are overachievers who didn't achieve what they wanted in life, and so put their pressures on her, trying to live their lives through her(They suggest for he to leave her old friends behind, encouraging her relationship with Ryan. Her mother is the Math Teacher). James' parents continue to compare him to his older brother, who was once a basketball superstar, and now just lives in their basement and smoke weed. They blindly favor and love the brother, thinking he'll get out of that 'stupor' eventually. All of the parents get a number, suggesting to their children how to face their upcoming school years. ("The Rules To Happiness")

Weston tries to follow his mother's advice, opening himself out to more people, offering tutoring services. This actually works for a while, and he gets the respect and friendship of the Chemistry Teacher. ("Go See Brainiac") Jenny asks him tutor Ryan for an upcoming Math test, and out of love for her, he accepts. Unfortunately, Weston accidentally teases Ryan for getting a problem wrong, and then also accidentally admits his feelings for Jenny. The next day, Weston finds his locker vandalized, and his books torn to shreds. Confused and hurt, Weston goes throughout the day, hearing wild rumors about himself. ("Gossip") When he finds Ryan to ask him if he wants to continue tutoring, Ryan begins to humiliate him in front of masses of students. A week passes by, and James informs us, the audience, that it only got worse. Online harassment, beatings, entire groups of kids shunning him.

Weston goes home, almost in tears, telling his mother what is happening. But she continues to preach about love, forgiveness, and turning the other cheek. ("Sore Cheeks") Ryan, meanwhile, sings to the audience of why he does this - it's all just a big joke, so no one should get upset. He then goes on to tell incredibly racist, sexist, younameist jokes to the audience, always responding with "Lighten up, it's just a joke." Which leads into his own number of how anything can be funny, and yet he's the only one who can't take it himself. ("Just A Joke") The bullying continues, now trying to make Weston "admit" he's a "faggot". It gets so bad, that Weston wonders if he is homosexual. James and Jenny try to be there for him when they can, and Jenny pleads with Ryan to be nicer to Weston. Weston, trying to figure out his sexuality, talks to James, Gay Theater Kid and Chemistry Teacher. The Teacher tells them about a sordid affair back in the days of his high school, trying to advise them that High School isn't forever. ("Life After High School")

Ryan's birthday comes up, and he invites plenty of people to his party, including, amazingly, Weston. Unfortunately, it turns out to be a set-up, as he and his friends lock Weston in a room with a male hooker. Meanwhile, James is telling Jenny about the 'sordid affair', and Jenny, to her shock, recognizes people in the story as her parents. Ryan overhears, but misunderstands the story - that Jenny's father raped Weston's mother. He and his friends shout into the locked room that Weston was an unwanted rape child,("Better Off Dead") as the male hooker tries to comfort him. Weston, at his limit, scrambles in the room, begining to sing along with the boys. He finds a gun belonging to Ryan's father, and accidentally shoots the male hooker dead. The song goes on, with the boys oblivious. Horrified, Weston begins escaping through a window... but, after a bit of hesitation, takes the gun with him.

Intermission. Act Two.

Rumors fly about the dead male hooker and the missing gun.("Gossip - Revise") Ryan and his friends had been forced to hide the body, as he wasn't supposed to have that party in the first place, and has gotten a black eye from his father for 'losing' the gun. No one suspects that Weston could have done it. Nevertheless, the harassment continues, harsher every day.

Weston tries to confront his mother about the rape, but she refuses to talk about it, still believing in the best of people("Good Catholics Don't Ask") - it incorrectly makes Weston think that Ryan is right. Desperate, he goes to Jenny, trying to tell her what happened but unable to, and also wanting to keep their friendship. Jenny wants to keep it as well, but the pressure from her parents and her new clique is heavy. ("Silver And Gold") During Math Class, the class easily pushes the teacher around, and as such easily bullies Weston. He keeps looking for James and Jenny to defend him, but they keep quiet. It's in fact Gay Theater Kid that finally speaks up, and tells them that Weston isn't gay, but maybe the bullies are if they're so obsessed with the damn subject.("The Right Penis") Inspired, Weston suddenly kisses Jenny, and her mother, the Math Teacher, runs out of the room.

After class, the four students are elated. Weston, to have friends and to have kissed Jenny. James, to see that people can actually stand up and make a difference. Gay Theater Kid, for standing up for himself and his sexuality. Jenny, begining to realize she's in love with Weston. The four share an uplifting number about hope and individuality ("What My Yearbook Will Say") However, before they finish the last bar, each student is met with devastation. Jenny is yelled at her by her mother for 'playing along with' Weston, and accidentally reveals it was she who was raped by Jenny's father, forcing the two of them together. The Music teacher is finally fired, as the budget can no longer cover such actives, so Gay Theater Kid loses the stage and his only opportunity to prepare himself for the Broadway acting life he dreamed of. James' Brother has finally gotten a job -a really successful one - so now his parents love his brother more than ever. Finally, Weston is cornered by the jocks, and beaten near to death.

Weston sits in his room, unable to take the torment anymore. Suddenly, the spirit of the gun, taking the form of a seductive older woman, approaches him, telling him there's only one out. ("Use Me") Horrified, he rejects her. The next day, Weston tries to tell Jenny and James what Ryan did to him, and a crowd gathers. James, wanting to stay in good grace in the popular crowd, suddenly begins beating him up, getting a rousing cheer. A parade follows him out, even Jenny after some hesitation. After a moment of silence, Weston quietly questions the audience "Three more years?"

We finally approach the day of the shooting. It's been a year since Weston's first day, and once again the students and faculty sing about the glory of their school ("The Glory Years - Revise"). But there's a shot in the middle of the number, instantly killing the lead singer - James. People scatter and scream as more shots ring out to frantic, violent music, as the background has flashing images of newspaper articles and tv reports about 'famous' school shootings (such as Colombine, Virgnia Tech, etc) We are then presented the first scene that we saw when the musical opened, as the two sing ("How Did It Come To This - Revise") again. Jenny pleads with him to spare her, and he seems to consider it - then suddenly grabs her wrist, dragging her off screaming. We see the Chemistry Teacher, his room hoarded with the faculty and students. He wants to go out and save Jenny, but everyone is telling him its madness. As they argue, another gun shot goes out. Chemistry Teacher suddenly runs out... only to find Jenny alive, and that Weston had committed suicide.

The entire ensemble comes together for a final song about how long High School really is, and how the future is ultimately up in the hands of our children, made poignant by Weston seeming to fire into the audience. ("Finale - This Is Our World")

... wow, where the hell did all of that come from?
 
 
 
 
 
 
Oprah has praised Twilight.

Sorry, mom, she's dead to me now.
 
 
 
 
 
 
So I figured it's time for another "happy" post, and what's happier and more awesome than Disney art? Like last time - "I was going through some Disney art I've collected over the years, and I remembered I've got some people on my F-List who are just as big disney junkies as I am. So here are some of my favorite pics of The 'Sensational Six'. Five from "Mice", five from "Birds", five from "Dogs", and five from "Group." So, obviously it'll be image heavy!"

Mickey and Minnie On A Moonlit Night~ )
 
 
 
 
 
 
My dad was driving me home yesterday, because I was sick and we all felt it'd be for the best for me to be home so I wouldn't bother the roommates and all, and during the car trip, I had this weird idea for a story. So I'm typing out all I can remember about it.

It opens on the average day of a sixteen year old boy. We follow him through this entire day, from waking up to sleeping, and only a few things sound unusual - scratching his ears, an acute sense of smell, eating raw meat - until we reach the end of this first chapter. This boy is actually a five foot tall wolf that can walk and talk like a human. His name is David, and no one in the medical/scientific community can discover why he was born a wolf.

But he's lived a healthy, normal life, somewhat, as the media lost interest in him once they realized his mother raised him to be nice and obedient (his father left them when he was young, unable to take the 'monstrosity') David is actually meek and a bit of a coward, but a very good boy. He just wishes he was a 'real boy', to make his mother's life easier... and he'd love to have a girlfriend. So these thoughts go on as he returns to school the next day...

... And a hulking eight foot tall muscular man bursts in through a window, armed with a chainsaw, wanting to kill him. Of course, David is scared out of his mind, and flees for his life, as the crazy man destroys the school around him, demanding a real fight. It's only when David sees a strange but beautiful girl laying unconscious on the school grounds (in the way of the crazy man) that he stops where he is, and risks his life trying to protect her. As he does so, a power rises up within him, a glowing red light seeps through his fur, and he has the strength of an army, beating the crazed man to a pulp. Once the battle is over, the light disappears, and he has no idea what just happened, and the girl had vanished.

He ponders about the entire strange incident, and the very next day, the beautiful girl is at his doorstep. However, instead of thanking him, she demands to let her shave off his fur. "It'll make a great coat - and you owe me! If I hadn't done the whole damsel in distress bit, you would have never had the guts to beat him, right?" She says she's Bo Beep, and that she can help turn David into a real boy, if she'll come with him to her world - the world where the stories humans make up are real.

Wanting to be a real boy and make his mother proud, he follows Bo Beep into the Other world. Here, people are terrified of him, as wolves are dangerous creatures. But Princess Red Riding Hood stands up for him, and explains that this whole thing was her fault. You see, everytime a story is told in the human world, it happens in the Other world. In Hood's case, every time someone tells the story of Red Riding Hood, a girl finds an urge to dress in red, visit her grandmother, gets eaten by a wolf, and then the wolf is killed so the girl and granny is saved. Hood was trying to make a spell to stop this and save the wolves, but instead, wound up switching the births and bodies of a wolf from Other world and a human from ours. The human who has grown up in Other world is now a tyrant, trying to become king. Only if David defeats him can he get his deservd body back, and it'll take many friends to help him - A gay Prince Charming, the tricker Anansi, a sex-crazed Beauty, and many more.

And that's what I've got.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I'm going to make a happy entry one of these days.

So. I hate my boyfriend. He needs to learn telepathy.

Me: Hey Nick.
Nick: Hey Mel. Is it just me, or have things been kind of distant lately?
My Thoughts: YES. THEY HAVE. BREAK UP WITH ME.
Me: Yeah, well, you know, we have college.
Nick: Right. So, I was thinking, are you free this Sunday?
My ThoughtsGOD DAMMIT, I WAS PLANNING TO STUDY FOR BROADWAY AND HEALTH CLASS. THIS IS GOING TO SUCK. Well, I do love New York, so maybe it won't be too bad.
Me: No, I'm free.
Nick: Great. There's this diabetes walk happening nearby on Sunday.
My Thoughts: ... A what. A WHAT. DO YOU SOMEHOW MISS SEEING ME GET EXHAUSTED EVERY TIME I HAVE TO GET UP THE STAIRS HERE?! THERE IN TWO THINGS IN LIFE I HATE. EXERCISE AND HELPING PEOPLE.
Me: ...A-huh. Um.
Nick: And then afterwards, there is this really great hot dog place.
My Thoughts: ... So you're going to tire me out and then have us eat. EXERCISE+STUFFING FACES=PUKE. THIS IS A FACT. THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH.
Me: Oh, yum. So. Uh. What time do you want me to meet you there?
Nick: I was thinking 8:30 or 8:20 a.m.
My Thoughts: ... I am going to kill you.
Me: I'll... look... into it.

Yes, so, it's my fault for not really speaking what I'm saying, I am terrible with confrontation and telling people 'no' in real life.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Ever since she first saw the trailer for it, my mom was really excited to see the film "Where The Wild Things Are". A kind of excitement for a movie that I've rarely seen from her. Tonight, we went, and I enjoyed myself. It was a good movie, I highly recommend it.

But... it struck a sore spot.

Early in the begining of the movie (spoilers, obviously) the main character Max initiates a snowball fight with his older sister and her friends. It's all good fun... but then the kids chased Max into his snow fort, and proceeded to smash it down. Max struggled to gt out, and stood there, crying. His sister watched, but then left with her friends. Broken, he ran into her room, making it wet with his snow-covered outfit, and destroying a gift he had made for her before.

As I watched him whisper to his mother "She didn't defend me" , I felt tears in my eyes, and I physically struggled to not let them flow. This is me I heard myself think. This was me.

Ever since I was born, I could not depend on my sisters. I have three of them - two older,one younger. The single happy moment I have of the four of us together is me making up stories with my stuff animals, like a variety show, on the top of a bunkbed, while they would lay on the lower one, using their imaginations to see what I was describing. "Animals Away!" I would call into the hallway, letting them know I was ready for them to come and listen.

That is the single good memory I have of them. Surrounding this memory are all of the times they would make fun of me when I played alone, when they hung out with their friends on the porch but wouldn't invite me.When they would scoff at all the hobbies I showed an interest in, and crowed their own achievements. I never got a congrats or a great job whenever I did something good. I never got a hug or condolences when I was hurt.

I was bullied plenty in my school years. My sisters were in the same schools, but never rose up to help me. They would ignore my sobs when I returned home, or mock me for making 'such a big deal about it'. They would insult the few friends I made, assuming I had to be gay when I showed such a close bond to a girl. Some days I would even be too afraid to talk to mom and dad about how I felt, because I knew my sisters would find out, and make it worse.

I'm 21 years old now. Maybe it's time I got over this. I know there are people who have way worse siblings. But even today, they don't make an effort. They still make fun of my interest in Japanese culture, call me a child over my love of cartoons and video games, and refuse to treat me as any kind of equal. That is why, when I saw Max whisper to his mother, I whispered to myself as well. Why weren't you there to defend me? To love me? Why did you feel you needed a reason to do any of this? Why wasn't me being your sister good enough reason?

I don't need you. I have brothers and sisters who will love me more than you ever will.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Felt I should give this up an update... and writing shit out usually helps with my frustration. And I'm frustrated.

My 19th century romantic Lit teach is kind of a bitch... at least, that's what I was begining to think once I began trying to hand in a small essay. The requirements were to use essays other people wrote, you know, professional ones. Since the book the assignment was about was chock full of essays, I used two from there. Even paid to zerox them out when she wouldn't accept the paper without 'the essays themselves'. Then she tells me she needs the entire essays - the ones in the book are just excerpts. So I go online to look for them, and THEY WANT YOU TO PAY TO GET THEM. Which makes me foam at the mouth because the damn excerpts got my fucking point across, the teacher even said so and that I was a good writer, so why does she need the full fucking thing?

Adding onto that, everyone is understanding the poetry we're going over. And I'm not. And I swear to god, I'm the only one. People rave on and on about what the meanings are, what the author meant, while I'm staring at the page going WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU PEOPLE GETTING THIS. The teacher even pulled me over and was all but telling me that "yes, you're not getting it", and giving me all of these pitiful looks. Thanks. Because I don't already feel like the moron of the class.

My roommate is being aggravating as well. Sunday, her boyfriend sleeps over... and his cell phone goes off at 6 am, loud as hell. Roomie even asked me if that noise was me, even though the damn sound was coming from her side of the room, from her boyfriend's bag! She was able to fall right back asleep, and I was not. No apology from either of them either. Toilet flooded later. Then the next day, today, she turned on the light... WHILE I WAS ASLEEP. Have I ever done that to her, when most of my classes are in the morning and she's asleep? No, I sneak out and I tip toe and do my damn best not to disturb her day. And yet here I am, curled up and asleep, and she turns on the god damn light, getting dressed and printing things out and setting up her outfits for later and WHAT THE FUCK DID I GIVE ANY INDICATION I WAS AWAKE.

Nick keeps calling, I keep ignoring him. I want to break up with him, I don't even like him that much.

Finally, this last issue... I can't even talk about, because it involves people who can see this. You haven't done anything wrong, and I love all of you. I don't write 'this' out because I don't want to lose anyone or hurt anyone. All I want is a simple explanation, and I'm afraid to even ask for that, in fear of sounding like begging and pleading. I don't need to be included, I know we don't have to do everything together, I'm happy with the way things are, I don't want to guilt you into doing anything, but I'm so fucking afraid of stepping on toes and becoming someone you'll regret knowing. And yet for every time I don't ask and I think about it, I doubt myself and our friendship more and more, and I wind up feeling like you don't even want me at all. You don't have to include me, just tell me why I wasn't included in the first place. I just want to know why.

God I hope I'm on my period, because that last paragraph almost made me cry.
 
 
 
 
 
 
For MSU Japan Club  )
 
 
 
 
 
 
Hey everyone. The computer issue is not resolved - I am getting a new one (or a used one, but still a new one... you get the idea.) but it will take at the very least a week to get it either way. However, the one I have now is functioning enough to at least get me through the day, and I believe that it will last me long enough until I get the new one. Long story short, I'm coming off hiatus in all of my rpgs, but the road is still shaky.

In other news, the upcoming previews for Sonic 205 were awesome.
 
 
 
 
 
 
All right guys, time to update and level with you. Yes, my laptop is still broken, in a sense. The fan that prevents overheating won't work, so, obviously it's overheating. It will shut off when it overheats too much... except when it is on a smooth surface, like a table or a desk. Which I use all the time at college. Also, the battery is dead, so it automatically shuts off when the plug is pulled. But I rarely need to take the laptop around anyway - I usually just stay at one place, and should something like he printer running out of ink or a similar solution happens, I can use the printing la or college library computers for that.

Logically, I could have kept RPing and such. That is what I miss most of all. But I wasn't 100% sure whether I was keeping this, or my parents would let me buy a new one, and I didn't want to make a hiatus too soon or too late, or just suddenly vanish without a word of warning. Naturally, money is the deciding factor in either choice. I am perfectly fine either way, but I need them to make a decision (as I lack money, to buy a new one/get this fixed would be their money.) so I can feel comfortable. Not to mention if we did buy a new one, it would take time downloading everything I need for it to be mine. If you get me.

I was hoping we would come to a decision tonight, but apparently they decided going to a basketball game was more important. Yeah. So. At the very least by Sunday when I return to college, a decision will have been made. If I getting a new computer, I will still be on hiatus until I get it and set everything up. If I am not, I am either (1)sending it to get fixed, which will take time or (2) accepting this as it is, and announcing my return to RPing that Sunday night.
 
 
 
 
 
 
So, once again, my computer is falling apart.

But this time, it's for good. There is no more fixing this, we need to buy a new one.

No hiatuses full of tags. I will be at college, not at home, so I can't use any computers for pleasure.

Just wait. I hope it won't be long.

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